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Pretenders

by The City Streets

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1.
I wait for you here you come to me again I’m in my bed breathing heavy exhaling with the cold wind rattling my windows O death where have you been all my life? You give me certainty, some ominous comfort Leave me with terror I will try to turn into something Oh you shake me and you make me stare you straight in the face Before you let me wake can I stay awhile before you take me? My most faithful lover comes to me every night wraps my heart in cold, cold ice Leads my soul to doubt everything in this life except for you I wake up and I’m paralyzed and I know that I won’t be alive After one last moment sometime It’s not about the void or calling the void god It’s the fear of nothing ever mattered
2.
White Lies 04:59
I'm the punchline to a mean joke in this country almost everyone laughs my childhood was a nightmare they either taunted or were silent, aghast my mother was born on the reserve a few hours drive from here but she don't talk about that it's not the kind of place you make a career but then neither is this one dirty natives need not apply we don't tip, and we're all drunks what relief when we finally die off white lies must be nice to not be openly despised I wish I could tell you what I feel from your eyes lead the savages to the church house beat Jesus into their hides for the stubborn, whiskey and smallpox it's amazing any survived here we are like some lepers for whom most can't empathize a broken people a reminder of imperialism's design chorus In a store I'm a thief on a screen a red chief in the graveyard a suicide at school I'm a chug in the street I'm a thug in the bank I'm a welfare free ride I feel like I'm disappearing I'm scared I've always been gone I feel like the part they throw away from an animal slaughtered in it's cage My grandma was made catholic she was so young when the nuns cut off her beautiful hair they beat her cause she was left-handed I agree the devil was there in the residential schools of lower canada o' canada I am a lame deer amongst the civilized I am my ancestors fading battle cries O' Great Spirit when life fades may I come to you without shame
3.
Pretenders 03:30
if my songs make you sad it's cause we both know that there's nothing like the first time I've learned it the hardest way the wanting leads us further astray but to go without is terrible years on end without shame I wanted glory not the fame oh, the lies we tell ourselves how can I fear death but not the blackout in oblivion I can't stand out and everyone secretly believes they're different what I have to give up to survive makes me feel less alive youth has been my currency I'm running out, will you run out on me? you envy your kids when they do things you can't do anymore it breaks your heart when they give up what you never could if my songs make you blue it's because you feel it too we've stopped pretending if we don't make it I don't think I'll make it
4.
you told me once you were born for me I left something back in Nashville, Tennessee maybe a guitar or some haunting melody more like a feeling like I want to be free well our story so far isn't nothing new you're my best friend and my lover too all that passion, baby all that pain is it sorrow or wisdom that we gain I know you've shown me the way that you wanna go I'm not so sure, i just wanna let you know I'll always love you that's no lie 'cause I mean what I say and I'm saying it now goodbye we were fighting all my words sounded so wrong in the stale air so i put them in a song and i tried to tell you oh so many things like did you ever listen, i mean were you really listening? in the old days you held me so right now when you hold me it's a little too tight in the old days you held me so right now when you hold me baby, you're holding on for dear life
5.
The rain that I'm wandering through in the same streets as my favorite Jew. Westmount after the war. L'hiver avec Leonard, je prendre encore. We leave our hearts like an open wound. We live our hearts like an open wound. These hearts will heal soon. If we protect them. You do things to me I can't do to myself or to you. Confused we stare into the sound the cops are smiling something profound. The light was warmer then your body candelit the light was different then before Edison. Should I stop myself in dreams from doing unspeakable things. A code you break but never keep ultimatums faith can't afford to leap. These hearts will heal soon if we forget them.
6.
Don't it feel good to not be wasting time. Stay up all night writing songs it's too cold to go outside. George Harrison called them the naughty chords, y'know the 6ths, 11ths and 9ths. It gets dark for a moment then we come out the other side. I was so lucky I could say the words, "I almost died." On a mountain pass she tried to run us off. Fireball, emptiness inside. Of course I noted the irony, all those nights I'd drink and drive. Oh, and it wasn't right, it's never right. But now I'm here to give everything I have to this prairie night. I try to get myself all tingly warm without my trusty wine. It's not as easy as getting bored but I'm stubborn so I try to break the waves crashing over me carry them away without spilling a single drop. In the dead of winter under a film of ice the St. Lawrence gurgles and churns until it empties out where the salt returns. Back west it's two hours earlier and you guys surrender to this prairie night.
7.
I’ll be up all night watching old movies and reading books But I’ll crawl into bed before the sun and you get up for work You’ll kiss me goodbye then I’ll get up and feed the dog Make breakfast for the brat, take her to the school bus And wave as the driver pulls away I’ll see you again at the end of your day I wonder what it’s like inside your head Hope you’re having fun, don’t worry Let others do that instead When it’s freezing it’s the best Take off your clothes, climb back in bed Drift off in the warmth Camaraderie of honking horns People getting there safely together The worriers will worry The miserable will mise The selfish will sell Shame to the dignified Overachievers will stop trying Drunks put the bottle down The mime just started talking There was no one else around The strangers started waving To each other in the street If you’re living in this city Maybe one day we’ll meet
8.
Take it slow with me these are words so hard to hear I don’t know, I don’t know (unconscious terror) I’m beside I’m beside (the deceitful bearer) Of our time in the days barely lasting Don’t give up your goodness child Survival’s not the same as being alive Those who escaped climbed the walls Clawed through black mud And the rain and the rain (made them colder) When it came when it came (the sun was grey) And the road could not take them home Don’t give up your children mothers Your purpose here is to make them free Let the black sheep take charge up the stormy mountain In your backyard where I buried all your letters I will wait for you again if we get to start again I will sing your song all this weary life long Don’t let go of this melancholy It’s life’s lasting feeling time cannot erase
9.
Dusklovers 01:24
Dusklover, how long has it been since the sunrise meant a beginning Dusklover, this is a dangerous time, the cars can’t decide whether to turn on their lights dusklover, twilight is like that feeling right before a storm you feel electric, can’t quantify what lies between us and those stars dusklover, I admire your penchant for the dramatic dusklover, you ignore so well that failure is automatic
10.
Anna Karina 02:11
Anna Karina I ain’t never seen ya Except across some movie screen A woman is a woman and you’re the most beautiful Woman I’ve ever seen Anna Karina I’ve only dreamed that I’d meet somebody like you With your eyes painted dark and a cigarette To spark a heart from feeling so blue Winona Ryder when I lay down beside her She just don’t compare my love She’s been with my friends, won’t stay ‘till the end But you’re the one I’m thinking of Anna Karina I ain’t never seen a Girl as pretty as you If I could go back in time then I’d make you mine And Jean Luc is the one feeling blue Anna Karina you’ve made me a fiend An addict for new wave French film But I live in Alberta where they’ve never heard of A cow as a pet they just kill ‘em
11.
Pools of mud from rain Then the grey and barren sky All you had to say Stay the winter and forget goodbye Eyes well up with tears The water well is plenty dry Can we last the year Each one has passed us, barely getting by We pray for dignity What does it really mean? Stark raving can’t shake This cold from our yellow bones A thirst dangerous to slake You can ill afford to leave them alone Curse this western land Vast and awesome emptiness There’s no gold just sand The Indians hadn’t mentioned this We pray for dignity What can it really mean?
12.
give me your winter kiss what if we weren't born here? what if we weren't born the snow turns into slush then the rain covers the city in ice hold my arm if we fall, we fall together we always take this street, let's try the next one I need a next one careful, the snow plows will run you over driving on the sidewalk the time has passed when I can trust myself fucked up I fucked up so many times even sorry is an insult so many times now sorry is an insult I find myself older than the college girls in coffee shops It's curious. How we see ourselves. Some omniscient static being buried inside this aging skin Half a closet full of clothes terrified she can't fit in I long for your icy lips you never let your guard down I see the good in that now we all need some protection even from each other - usually from each other
13.
There’s an old photo of a younger you There’s a consciousness we’re not privy too There’s an orchestra playing inside my brain But I can’t transcribe it and the spirit wanes Past nostalgia to something more sincere It hurts a whole lot worse but it’s still not clear I’ll keep looking here Got a call from an old friend, saying nothing’s right Been drunk all December still the wife won’t fight There’s nothing worse than prolonged lethargy From the one you used to love so disarmingly Past despair to something more catatonic What’s in your mind, am I still on it Some fading sonnet Hey, you can call me anytime
14.
The Shiver 03:17
Your eyes shone. You took off your clothes. I was 17. You're nervous. Ah, but you're so pretty I wouldn't change a thing on you. Every night bursts at the seams couldn't figure out what she means trying anything, I'll try anything does it feel alright? The band's in the basement someone called the cops, they're gonna have to arrest us before we stop. That night we got beat up real bad it was you and me. It was you and me. Someone carry me awhile I feel like I'm running out of days.
15.
I’m a man who loves women but let’s make it clear I’m more Cassavetes than O ‘Toole, hell we made it here There’re movies about movies, books about books This is a song for all the songs your beauty took Like John and Gena, Henry and June No matter how long it’s over too soon It was nothing but Herzog and Godard that one fall We’d fuck between films, Jesus freaks down the hall ‘The Bicycle Thief’ anything by Bresson A newborn not even 20, baby you were so strong You say you’re not afraid to die I just can’t say goodbye I watched ‘Paris, Texas’ with a broken heart Nattasya Kinski was playing your part I realized all that mattered was you I’ll wander through the desert if it’s what I have to do I’ll crawl through the desert if it’s what I have to do

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The City Streets are:

Mark Chmilar - Drums/Percussion/Keys/Vibraphone
Matt Leddy - Bass/Guitar/Keys/Vocals
Rick Reid - Vocals/Guitar/Banjo/Bass

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released May 12, 2013

All songs and lyrics by Rick Reid (SOCAN/BMI).
All music by the City Streets.
Recorded at the Hive Creative Labs July 3rd - 5th 2012.
Produced by Jesse Gander and The City Streets
Mixed by Jesse Gander
Mastered by Stu McKillop at Rain City Recorders
additional editing Tannis Gibbons
Layout and Design by March Chmilar

Thanks and/or love:
Jesse (you guys are a bunch of junkies) Gander, Garrett Craigs, Frank Pirker, Stu McKillop, Amber Reid and Jon Elson for use of their vehicle, Colin Stewart, Previous Tenants, our families and friends for putting up with us over the years.

Extra special thanks to Darryl Craigs for use of his beautiful Martin acoustic guitar which was restrung lefty and played all over this record, Also for lending us his jeep which died on the outskirts of Dauphin, Manitoba...one day we will repay you somehow.

Additional Musicians:
Alex Bachmayer - Vocals on Before Edison, Back in Nashville and Prairie Night
Doug Liddle - Pedal Steel on Back in Nashville, Forget Goodbye, Heavy Branches, Dobro on Anna Karina
Jesse Gander - Keys on Heavy Branches, The Shiver
Garrett Craigs - feedback on White Lies

This album is for Farrah Fennig and Nate Syska.
Copyright 2013 Clamour Records.

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Rick Reid, Matt Leddy, Mark Chmilar. 2005-2013. Edmonton/Montreal.

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